It just seems like it's happening to me again. That "no traces of me" thing. you won't know what I'm talking about. Only my heart knows. My heart knew it from a very very long time ago. Am I predestined to be like this? If yes why? I wish that the ans is no.
Why does God choose to be so good to me? I really dunno cuz it seems like "one ****** *'* **** and one ****** *'* ***". How *********...
so much challenges to face ahead. The fear of another major appointment in my training, the long march that's waiting for me, the rivers that are waiting for me to cross and the jungles that are waiting for me to survive.
The fear that everything with *** that might go wrong can go wrong. sometimes, I just need someone to understand "it". But what is "it". i think no one understands.
I can only look towards heaven and pray. I know it always is the way.
I guess only the Divine One will understand the whole chunk of nonsense that I'm talking about. I'll try to make more sense in future ok?:)
